Sharing the research here for reference:
https://dholu.me/2026/01/22/quantifiable-approach-to-purpose-of-my-life/
I appreciate that you've put time into thinking about this and have made a detailed research on it. While I was reading it I felt why does one make things so complex? Why can't they see it fundamentally and try to live with it.
As soon as this question popped, the answer also came up. It might be hard to see things fundamentally or doing these things would eventually make them come to that point.
If you did not live in the city and were to live in the nature with minimal requirement(say you had a shelter to sleep at night) would you feel alive 100% of the time then?
Right now I am living in a city where I do not have to worry much about unexpected accidental harm that would happen to me. Now of course there would be harm from other humans and it could be accidental but I am trying to say that we don't have to worry about where we place our feet while we walk atleast.
Here is something to think about:
You have mentioned that you wrote this research over few days while you had lunch at the cafe.
Since you were spending time on figuring out things for yourself and your life at the cafe while you had lunch that made you be alive 100%? So it isn't the meal, the place or other things that you had but it is just that you were having some time for yourself to find answer to something that is needed.
I could add few more things if I think on this more, but I just feel that it is just futile.
Will drop this here, maybe we can have a discussion on it when we meet.
If you do not remember things, would you consider it as being alive or dead?
(Personal note to myself, so that I don't forget the context.. sleep, dream, etc)
I am constantly questioning my reality. Sir @minaminosuechi , you ask if we don't remember things then would we consider it as being alive or dead. I fail to understand the context here. How do you mean?
@dholu Normally we tend to consider being alive only when we are conscious because we use our senses to confirm that.
When we are in deep sleep we are also alive at that time, just that we dont remember what happend to use during that time or we don't recall or remember that we are sleeping.. its just blank once we wake up.
So say when we are alive if we do not get attached or have memory of things that we interact with, we would still be alive.
@minaminosuechi Oh. Then whats the point in even existing.
@dholu I don't know or rather why think there is even a purpose to exist? Why not just exist just like other things in nature?
A flower blooms and falls out, the plant that nourishes it.. does it ask why do I even nourish this flower if its going to die out or get plucked by others? (Maybe it might in flower language :D)
Sir @minaminosuechi , a flower doesn't have a cognitive brain, does it?