Am I really not part of the herd or is it just that my mind has assumed that construct. Am I more aware or actually more zombified? Am I already influenced?
Am I really not part of the herd or is it just that my mind has assumed that construct. Am I more aware or actually more zombified? Am I already influenced?
Could you elaborate more on this?
I wish to believe that I am walking a path to be more aware about myself. But then again, my perception of me getting aware; does it really contribute to general awareness or am I being influence by the knowledge that is presented to me because the artificial ecosystem which clearly know what I will accept based on the data and research they already have on me.
Let me tell you what I understood from reading what you’ve said above.
Deep down you want to be more aware of yourself.
You do find yourself being aware of yourself and while you do it you also are aware that you’re being aware of this and you feel that it is happening because someone has told you to be this way.
And this is whats troubling you, that you being aware that you’re trying to be aware of yourself might be artificial.
Is this right?
I am extremely glad that you have understood what I wanted to say. Your perception of my explanation is exact.
When you find yourself being aware of yourself are you aware that it is also being aware of what is happening in yourself. (loving this :D)
Anyways, I know what you’re going through.. while it might be a bit hard to explain but I can suggest you this for now.
I am pretty sure you might have had dreams which might have felt real or just any dream would do as well.
Do you recall having thoughts in the dream like you have or are you living in that moment in the dream?
Yes. I have had some very realistic dreams recently. But I am not living in that moment of the dream. I believe I am in my present. Please explain what are you trying to say.
I am not relating dream and when you’re awakened.
In the dream, we experience things that are happening around or with us, there is no thoughts or other things happening.. its just pure experience.
Do you agree on this?
yes, I do.
Now when you’re aware of you being aware that you’re being aware.. isn’t that being in the present?
And if you’re feeling that you’re being aware just because of influence then just be aware of that and see what happens.
hmm. I need to think about this.